Damn...

I had another fight with my mom this morning. A shoutfest, It's because I'm a drunk again. I didnt want to drink last night, I just have to. I just hate it when she reiterate that I'm weak, stupid and dumb. Then she pulls out and says she didnt tell me those things. She just makes me see and feel it. I wished Iv'e never woken up this morning. What do I really want? What am I here for? What good am I in this muthafuckin world. Fuck this shit. I'm gonna fuck this shit.