Friday, August 22, 2008

How lonely am I

It hurts wen you feel lonely dont you think? Whoo, dont want this feeling but I have no choice. This Is what I wanted, this is what I have become. I wont blame anybody else. But I kinda like the feeling that I could do something with it. It lets me view the world radically. Oppurtunities should be taken, goals should be viewed criticically. Focus is very much needed if you want to achieve things. But I live day-to-day through my feelings. And my feelings mess me up. I think I have high EQ. Nah, Im just making reasons for myself. just take a look at how i constantly change perspectives of my life. FOCUS, I need FOCUS. Or do I need "to" FOCUS. I am getting more and more insane everyday. Absurd. I should review more about the way i lived before, existential.

Why do I feel lonely? Why do I want this feeling? Or why does this feeling haunt me everytime I look myself up in the mirror. I do not need help. I do not need anybody. I need me. I want a Canon DSLR camera.

Saturday, August 9, 2008

90's music

Why am I so hooked at this era? Am stuck here "paulit ulit na lang ang no doubt, oasis, 311, tommy henriksen, bush, silverchair, arkarna, foo fighters, nirvana, smashing pumpkins, GnR, Indio I, Imago, etc" maybe it just feels too good! Cuz the artist back then were not thinkin about profit. (long live cobain!) i just love it because I love it! not like, "apple bottom jeans... (which I memorize too)" no offense to rap artists. (I also adore the BTnH "crossroads" though). Music nowadays has no more responsibility. No more passion. I even asked sum of my peers why they continually practice in studios... they say all the same answer... "para makilala yung tugtog namin at mashare sa mga nakikinig yung gusto naming iparinig sa kanila...!" BULLSHIT. I even see behind their eyes the thirst for money. Thats what they see. Thats what we all saw. But If we think harder than our dicks, than the hunger for money and drugs etc... philippine music should have been a tool for unity! "Juan DeLa Cruz' Ang Himig Natin" Let Philippine Music be a tool for responsibility and Unity. D,TPC.TYON,IB. Make more music that would put an effect on not just today's generation, Let it stay tomorrow. Eg. hotel Rwanda ST.

This Is just my "tambay" opinion.

The Philippines Is dead. What about the Filipino People?

Monday, August 4, 2008

Damn...

I had another fight with my mom this morning. A shoutfest, It's because I'm a drunk again. I didnt want to drink last night, I just have to. I just hate it when she reiterate that I'm weak, stupid and dumb. Then she pulls out and says she didnt tell me those things. She just makes me see and feel it. I wished Iv'e never woken up this morning. What do I really want? What am I here for? What good am I in this muthafuckin world. Fuck this shit. I'm gonna fuck this shit.

Friday, August 1, 2008

1:56 am and Im not drunk...

This is the shittiest thing ive ever seen.

Boy


Damn, this is just too pornografik!

I miss the days...

Gosh I'm getting old and useless... I bumped into youtube a while ago. Stumbled upon spider fighting, and i ended up being totally nostalgic. Remembering the good ol 90's era. **background music: BETAMAX** where text messagin' was not yet introduced, Telephones are literally dialled, and the primetime no. 1 show in the phils is Eye to Eye ni Inday Badiday. Ok lets go on what I feel those times.. Also ill add up definitions ok?

Labanang Gagamba - spider fighting. rating: 10/10
TEKS - card gambling. rating: 10/10
Jolens - marbles. 3/10
taguan: - hide and seek. 6/10
5,10 block 1,2,3 - tag. 8/10
taching - filipino style action figure gambling game. 10/10
taksi - much like taching but it involves real money. 10/10
Trumpo - top 4/10
luksong baka - you jump over someone 5/10
diablo - you tumble over someone 10/10
darna - street firecracker, most ingredients are homemade. 10/10
patintero - much like flag footbal i think with lines involved etc... 6/10
putbol - much like baseball but you use your foot as a bat. 10/10
POG - coca cola induced game in the 90's turns out to be just like TEKS after all 10/10
Sipa - the former philippine national sport/game. 6/10
Goma - rubber bands gambling 8/10
Tansan - bottlecap gambling 8/10
Balat ng kendi - candy wrappers with different colors have different values. (I remember Fox's cost 10,000 viva wrappers) 10/10
paaway - a game with slippers 7/10
HipHop/Punk/METAL - a game exclusive to otis paco manila where you fight, trade members.. 10/10

and last but not the least... my personal favorite... otis paco style.

Titi-titian - shit, i scored as early as 6? i had a small wank it wouldn't just fit in. so we just rubbed it together. I wont tell who I was with, She's very famous now...

peace.
R.I.P. 90's.